Awesome!
That’s how I want to feel. That’s how I want to be, the moment I
step out of our front door with the fireworks lighting up the dark skies and
the neighbors jubilant in their party hats and honking car horns. Well, they
won’t be cheering for me… they won’t even have an inkling of how I will turn
out to be the moment the last day of this year strikes twelve. But I won’t
mind, because whether the world knows it or not, I will have a smile on my
face… I will be standing tall knowing in my mind that the year is not the only
new thing coming out… so will the new me!
And what better way to start the coming year than to be a better
version of myself! To tell you frankly, I really do need a change… change in
the way I value myself, change in the way I treat myself, change in the way I
view the world, and change in the way I live my life. From where I am at this
moment, I can pretty much assure you, I am not at my best… the impracticalities,
the impulsiveness, the misunderstandings, the misconceptions, the self-denial
and the self-degradation. It may all sound vague but we’ll get into the details
of my personal flaws on some other time. Right now, I am convinced that the
best way to deal with this is to, figuratively, take a firm grip on the reins…
take control… and seriously commit to a good resolution.
Tradition shows that during the New Year, resolutions are
made. It can range from quitting on a
bad habit, assuming a good habit, living healthy, to trying on something new. But
resolutions aren’t foolproof... I mean, has anyone COMPLETELY kept by his
promise to change? I’ve tried, too many to count, and relatively, I failed a
lot of times too. But I thought why not twist things up with the tradition? So
the plan is, instead of deciding on what to do with myself the moment this year
ends, I’d rather end the year by being THE end-all be-all awesome goddess the
world deserves to know… that I deserve to know!
So, I only have more than 4 months left to use wisely. That is
not much but I have to make the most out of it. And for every month I have a
goal to achieve and each goal is a transition I have to pull through. Now you
might be wondering why I am willingly subjecting myself to the possible
scrutiny of others as I blog about something personal. Well, it is true that
when all eyes are on us, we do our best to put our best foot forward… and so
this kind of becomes a motivation for me, to put my best foot forward on this
project and stick to the commitment. And yes, who am I to deny that there
aren’t any hungry wolves out there eager to criticize for their own
contentment? Well, the world is full of bullies and hopeless souls who pretty
much make every single day a living hell… but they themselves are victims of
their own personal demons, just as much I am my own worst demon. And having
said that, I think we’re even.
Now, if you think that this project is a waste of your time,
well I can’t blame you. All I can say is… thank you… for considering the time
you allotted to spend on reading this up to the end of this sentence. But if
you think you can relate… if all of this makes sense, if it is something that
catches your attention and peaks your interest, well, I have no complaints
about you joining in on the ride. Besides, it can get pretty lonely and I think
an addition of a friend who shares the same ambition would profit us a prize
that exceeds our expectations: Me being awesome… You being awesome… Ergo, the
whole world will be awesome!
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